Rejoice!

“ Justice shall flourish in his time, and fullness of peace for ever.“

As usual I dropped the ball this Advent. I tried to focus myself but things kind of spiraled and in the end my words would have felt empty and my showing up rote.

I wanted this Advent to be more than that. I wanted my “presence” to create a deeper opening in my heart but instead, as I reflect, opportunities presented themselves in odd ways…and old ways, and I missed the chance to change. I didn’t see that what was happening was giving me an opportunity to make more room in my heart, to love more generously, to walk away from that which serves no one.

I wasn’t aware which means I wasn’t prepared.

But today’s events made me think that it is not too late. It is Advent after all and there is still time to prepare the inn. No one but me is rushing my transformation. Only God knows how far I have to go, I have an inkling it is a long, long way and that one season ain’t gonna cut it. But that is okay, because one season follows another and another, God willing, and I can keep working until I can experience the fullness of His peace.

So during this week of Joy, I rejoice that God is ever near me as I trip and fall, and trip and fall again. He calmly reminds me to still myself, to remember to rest in him and to give the Holy Spirit a chance to do what I can’t.