Answers

It occurred to me today that I accepted not one but two positions that I am pretty sure no one else wants.  I discerned them at length… I really did.  But I am already feeling the frustration of one of the drawbacks to one of the positions and I haven’t even become official.  What a sucker I am.  Seriously, they saw me coming.  So in my frustration and to change my mindset, I came down to my bookshelf while on the way praying that God would get me out of that thought.  I picked up a book given to me by a friend a while back at our monastery and I began to read.  This passage spoke to me. 


I don’t know Who – or what – put the question.  I don’t know when it was put.  I don’t even remember answering. But at some moment I did answer YES to Someone — or Something — and from that hour I was certain that existence is meaningful and that, therefore, my life, in self-surrender had a goal.

Dag Hammarskjold

I said yes to God’s promise. I said yes to faith.  I surrender my self…at least I am trying to in the midst of all of the mayhem that flurries in my mind, and I say Yes to God.  As we all know, every yes, has a no.  Apparently I said no to good pay, benefits and all of the other things that come with a normal job.  (Guffaw!) So, I am wading through trust waters…wondering if I am just gullible or if this has a goal.  At least trust waters aren’t floodwaters…thanks be to God.