This was a post I began a couple of weeks ago…but in light of the events of this past week, I thought I would finish it today.
****In the aftermath of the yesterday’s attack on the nightclub in Orlando and in the aftermath of the white privilege conversation, I find it hard to blog about what I really want to, which is my family and my garden. But all of this is connected in my small world because my heart breaks for all of the homes that have been impacted. How can I call myself a person of faith and not speak out about the weaknesses in our government officials? Why are assault rifles still available? That is my primary question? So, why?****
I started this post a couple weeks back and didn’t have the focus to continue it. But today is a new day because this week we had the horrible misfortune to once again watch our little world lose it’s mind. After the senseless murder of two black men and now the killing of at least five Dallas police officers, I just want to share what is on my mind. Normally, I don’t want to be part of the white noise of reaction, but today, I feel like something has to give.
I know I am part of the problem. I assume that by living my life in the most peaceful fashion that I can, I am helping create a better tomorrow for my children. My assumption is that because I work in a church that really does go out to the margins, that I am taking part in the building of the kingdom. I only exclude people who show signs of danger with no interest to their race, ethnicity or origin. I am an equal opportunity excluder because my responsibility is to protect kids. So I harbor some suspicion all of the time as I do my due diligence. (It can be a slippery slope if I also don’t see each person as a child of God.)
Who knows how many of the victims in this past week made similar assumptions? We are trying to live our lives in peace and then the world erupts. So where are people turning? NPR? CNN? Fox News? Facebook or Twitter? Where do we, as a society, turn? I’m thinking that all of us can answer yes to at least one of those places I listed above. But I wonder why it is we aren’t first and forever turning toward God.
We are being called to make a stand here on the side of love and justice. ANYONE who suggest otherwise is a liar and working on behalf of the great distractor. Sound scary? Well, it should. WE should be scared to some extent if we are not anchored and rooted in God in some way. The only thread that is strong enough to unite all of us is the thread from the spool of Love. Today we can make a choice even if we haven’t before, it’s not like God cares about timing, God is always ready to listen but now is the time. If we want things to change they have to change within each one of us. There simply is no other way. It can only happen through connection with our Creator who knows each of our minds and hearts.
I want things to change so I am keeping my anger at bay and I am keeping my compassion amped. I want things to change so I am going to deny myself the indulgence of too many opinions, though I have already expressed some.
I want things to change.
I want families to be whole. I want kids to have their parents and parents to have their children. I don’t ever want this to happen here. I want assault rifles controlled.
Don’t let this pivotal moment pass without making some kind of change in your heart.
At the very least, you will have tried.